Braved 2 and a half days back at work this week and bless my team and colleagues - it seems that they have missed me and were pleased to see me - thanks guys ;-) Anyway its a Huge and I mean GIGANTIC step forward. Am utterly exhausted physically but my brain seems to be back at almost full whirring speed which is a relief to some degree, although some memory for names seems somewhat troublesome, but then I was never much good at names and always great at faces! sorry folks - you might have to remind me who you are!
by 5pm today I could barely put one foot in front of the other to leave the office, but that was nice too. and thats not something I would ever have thought I would hear myself saying about a job, that its good to be back and good to be utterly exhausted. It means Im starting to sleep a little better - as still persistent issue in my world. but its great to have folks around me, Im chattering like Ive just been released from a vow of silence or in a convent for the past 3 months and cant get enough words out fast enough, so again, sorry if you're on the receiving end, Im just so excited to have someone to talk to at the moment........actually a convent is pretty spot on - quiet, and well, you know where im going on that one.........
Wangerama - my new name for my chineese wonder doc, did some different accupunture on me this week and another small celebration - drum roll please - I lay on my stomach for the first time in 3.5 months on Wednesday afternoon - now that might be small fry to you lot but given the breakages and fragility and tenderness Ive had this has been totally impossible until a degree of healing had happened. So more good news all in all - now that I can actually lie on my tummy, I can get a massage, and he can have the pleasure of sticking up to 20 needles along my spine and in my knees and ankles to drain me of all the nastiness that accupuncture is supposed to do. Now, I might add that this is in specific relation to a few things.
1) lack of sleeping
2) uncomfortable nights, pain and aches all over body and fluish sweats
3) manic all day everyday headaches that have developed. (see previous blog post re drug addiction!!!)
so I continue with the potion and now have migrated to stage 2 of healing and can actually stretch and do a bit more. I can open doors now without it hurting when I pull or push. I can carry bags, I can drive my car, I can lift smallish things - and dont worry Im not getting overexcited on that one! but yes, progress. so 2 steps forward and only the odd one back with the headaches etc.
oh and finally one last rather weird side effect from all these pills and so forth - I now get the most awful motion sickness - cars, buses and even the tube! Im carrying a travel sickness bag, so anyone who has any tips or can send me those awesome pressure band thingys, please do. I'll be a friend for life, its gotta be worth wearing those if it means that I dont turn up to work utterly green and vomity on the phased return/ part time schedule that I have outlined. Ive been told ginger is good for travel sickness as is boiled sweets, any other tips welcome........
....so a lie in tomorrow and recovery prgramme for todays expense. onwards and upwards.
No comments:
Post a Comment